Interesting.... yesterday I finally received what I ordered... a bunch of products from Joyce Meyer.... I was like whoa.... I got to read and listen to all this stuff. Man that's a lot of studying... What I can't understand is that am I so stressed out and other's are relaxed... Wait there is a difference between works of the flesh and Grace... Works of the flesh is when we try to be Holy spirit Jr. When we try 2 be Christians w/ out Christ. SO I decided today that I'm not reading or studying anything today I am resting in the beloved. I'm already accepted... He rocks and His grace is sufficient 4 me.... I am going to relax and stop moving so much!

Okay Okay Okay.... Now it's forgiveness time. I can't be mad 4ever. I noticed I am still upset. I get a text.... I donot want to talk to the person in Question but that's not hot. If I want God to forgive me I must 4give. The greatest Commandment is to Love the Lord thy God w/ all my Heart w/ all my mind w/ all my strength. If anything I'll do it 4 God and 4 myself. Living in unforgiveness is said to be like drinking poison and hoping the other person dies. or even being in a prison While the other person is enjoying life.

Also If I want God to hear my prayers I have to let go... I would be a hypocrite if I sit here and hold on to this incident.

Even when I was still in sin. Jesus died 4 me. I know my flesh is screaming No.... But like paul said I beat my body and make it my slave. God did say vengence is mine so I will let the CEO of the Universe Handle it. God Help me plz.

Sunday the 23rd I found my self horrible upset. Me and 9 other ppl were going to do a life changing skit @ the end of our revival which was titled "Heaven or Hell you Choose" and it ended up getting cancelled. We were devasted and what's crazy is that some ppl couldn't understand our frustration. It was like.... get over it! How do u just get over something so quickly. Anger is a normal emotion. Eph 4:26 In your anger Sin not...Do not go to bed angry. I doesn't look like I got much sleep that night.

It was funny because the more ppl were like it was okay Vicky... It's okay Just do it another time... it made me more upset. lol No seriously. I'm the type of person where if someone is venting I let them vent I may add my little two sense in, but that's about it. I may correct you when you're out of line but that's about it.

What I didn't like is that when someone does something wrong and they smile in your face... That urks my nerve and they want you to get over it that very second. You can apologize but make sure that you give the person room to breathe.....because they just might blow up. I know, I need space. I don't Like to be patronized. It's kool how God still rocks. I was upset, I told the person How I felt, yet I did not disrespect them nor did I get rude with him. I may have been a little loud but that was frustration.

I thank God because I know let that have been mayb 2 yrs ago , I would have not said anything and bottled up by true feelings. What I need to learn is how not to dwell on things to long... it's day 2 and I am better. I am happy that I am surrounded by ppl that I can talk to and that care about me. God's @ the top He understands me so well.

Also I haven't perfected how to be a politician... you know smile when your not happy... I am asking God how not to be a phony Chrisitian! Help me God....

I am begining to just study the love of God. I notice everytime I have thoughts of doubt, or feel insecure it goes back to the Love of God. I am accepted in the beloved and he truely cares for me and you. He is working overtime 4 us. Do not neglect the Lord thy God. His love endures forever.

Breaking free from Wilderness Mentality

Moses' Job was to lead the Israelites out of Slavery in Egypt to the Promised Land. On their journey to the Promised Land they were in the wilderness going around the same mountain for 40 years due to grumbling, complaining and faultfinding. Through the wilderness God led them with a cloud by day, fire by night. He sent fresh Manna (wafers made with honey) from the sky every day for them in the morning, water to drink and quail for them to eat in the evening. Instead of the Israelites seeing their Glass as half full, they saw their glass as half empty. They wanted to go back to slavery instead of press through to get to the Promised Land with a good attitude.

Even today many Christians have the same wilderness mentality. Just like the Israelites we were enslaved as well. Our Master was sin but now our new master is God.

Romans 6:20-23

When you were slaves to sin, you were free from the obligation to do right. 21 And what was the result? You are now ashamed of the things you used to do, things that end in eternal doom. 22 But now you are free from the power of sin and have become slaves of God. Now you do those things that lead to holiness and result in eternal life. 23 For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord.

When the difficulties of life happen, just like the Israelites we want to go back to the familiar life we used to live but God is calling us to come higher, to change our wilderness mentality to a kingdom of God mentality {Luke 17:20-21, Matthew 6:33, John 3:3, Mark 10:15}.

We have to shy away from thinking that will short circuit our destiny.

"I'm not good enough, I'm not worthy to serve God or go to heaven"

"It's not my fault, that's just how I am"

"I am a product of my environment"

"Everybody else's life is better than mine"

"God doesn't Love me"

Transform our mind with the word of God.

Ephesians 2:10……... "I am God’s work of art"

2 Corinthians 5:17….." I am a new creation in Christ Jesus"

Ephesians 4:13.......... "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"

Colossians 2:10…..… “We are made complete in Christ”

John 3:16................... "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish and have eternal life"

1 Corinthians 1:30…. “We are righteous and holy in Christ”

Let's stop complaining and keep moving! Your wilderness experience is not meant to hurt us but it is meant to shape your character, make you stronger and teach you how to trust God(Deuteronomy 8). Let’s Jehovah Jireh (Our provider), El Shaddai (Our Supplier) lead us through our journey into our Promised Land.

Just realized

Whoa This is crazy... Ha! I just realized that I spelled essence wrong in the essenseofbeauty.blogspot but hey It gives it character lol If someone can spell sensere like that and get away with it then dang I can do it to! It makes me feel good. It reminds me that I'm not w/o flaw I LOVE IT!! ( I'm mad I saw that 5 months later). I dare to be different and I dream in color---> what you got to say about that. Being politically correct is over rated. Thanks God 1 point 4 u. that's why ur God (INFINITE) in⋅fi⋅nite and I'm not (FINITE).

Definition on INFINITE
Use infinite in a Sentence
–adjective
1.
immeasurably great: an infinite capacity for forgiveness.
2.
indefinitely or exceedingly great: infinite sums of money.
3.
unlimited or unmeasurable in extent of space, duration of time, etc.: the infinite nature of outer space.
4.
unbounded or unlimited; boundless; endless: God's infinite mercy.
5.
Mathematics.
a.
not finite.
b.
(of a set) having elements that can be put into one-to-one correspondence with a subset that is not the given set.
–noun
6.
something that is infinite.
7.
Mathematics. an infinite quantity or magnitude.
8.
the boundless regions of space.
9.
the Infinite or the Infinite Being, God.




(FINITE)
having bounds or limits; not infinite; measurable.
2.
Mathematics.
a.
(of a set of elements) capable of being completely counted.
b.
not infinite or infinitesimal.
c.
not zero.
3.
subject to limitations or conditions, as of space, time, circumstances, or the laws of nature: man's finite existence on earth. !

I'm beginning to think I'm okay with that! You know why God is Elohim the creator of the Universe and once I accepted Jesus (king of all kings) I became His Child. Gal 3:26 "You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus) ... so that makes me princess and co-heirs w/ Christ. Where I am weak He is strong.

I was reading my study notes (in the life application study bible it's Hott get it) for John 1:3 Through Him all things were made; w/o Him nothing was made that has been made.

Notes: When God created God made something from nothing. Because we are created beings, we have no basis for pride. Remember that you only exisit because God made you, and you have special gifts only God gave them to you. With God you are something valuable and unique; apart from God you are nothing. If you try to live without Him, you will be abandoning the purpose in which you were created.

Do you ever feel that your life is too complex for God to understand? Remember, God created the entire universe, and nothing is too dificult for Him. God created you; He is alive today, and his love is bigger than problem you may face.

You Just Might be Great!!! Even Awesome... Why not find out?

I'm glad I went

I learned something new tonight... I'm excited I was being pulled in different direction and finally I ended up visiting this church with a youth revival theme called exteme Makeover Spiritual edition. When I say it was a blessing that the person giving the word was anoined boy... I could have stayed there all night... I didn't realize how late it was.

What I learned was this that the reason I feel like screaming and pulling my hair out is that God is doing some demolition duty in my heart (just like ty from exteme makeover home edition). God is doing that so He can dwell in me. He has to fix up the place 1st. Hey I don't blame Him I have some self defeating behavior that He is trying to get rid of and a whole lot of this that don't resemble Him at all. He is making me over.

God gave me His best---> Jesus! The least I could to is give Him my best. He longs to me gracious to me (and you). He doesn't want our scraps on Sunday morning, Mon-Sat we act like we don't know who He is. He is serious and what hit me more is that in a blink of an eye God could wipe me out, but He chose to keep me here. I won't die until I fulfill my purpose.

Have of the group of kids we went with got saved I am happy about that! Taste and see that the Lord is Good!!!